oscillation, cycles of neglect
I have had to squeeze myself into this corner, to get through this phase in my life, where I have neglect some of my needs, wants, or responsibilities in order to get anything done. When I first realized this, I kind of just laughed and felt kind of proud that I had figured something out. But it's kind of exhausting. I'm wondering if it's really, what's right for me. I don't like neglecting things. Do biological and ecological processes experience neglect? Yes, they do. They experience drought and flooding, in cycles just like me. Is this what religion is about? Turning to a grand system and entity that you cannot begin to wrap your head around. Pulling explanations and consolations from it, framing yourself as both a container and an element of it. So you can go to sleep at night. So you can go about your day. So you can keep trying your best. Maybe so.